Tuesday, July 19, 2022

Manifestation



Thanks to the quick reels of social media I recently learned about manifestation and had a realization.

The particular reel in questions shows a woman standing outside shouting up to the sky that she would like either all the things on her plate to do taken away, or her chronic illness taken away so she can do all the things on her plate.  Immediately, I related to her and her cry for help.  But, then she looks at her camera with a bit of an attitude and says, "It's called manifestation.  Look it up!"  

Manifestation is a New Age belief that you can believe or affirm something into existence.  It's the power of positive thinking, and of speaking into the Universe.  As a Christian, obviously I don't believe in New Age practices and personal spiritualism, but BUT I realized that many Christians do practice a form of Manifestation, and that a form of Manifestation was practiced within my old church.

Certain factions of evangelicalism got into the "Name It and Claim It" movement and the various renamed or slightly altered practices of it.  While my former church denounced Name It and Claim It, they still held onto a certain belief system that mirrors Manifestation, which is why I related to the woman and recognized it.  In fact, before she told the camera what she was doing I thought she was praying to God!  I thought she was doing similar to what we did in our old church.  

The idea in my old church was the God wants to give us all the good.  He wants to heal and fix and bless and all those things, which is true...to a point, but there was this undercurrent of needing to find the right prayer formula, the right amount of faith, the right spiritual practices in the right amount.  It was a constant battle of trying to figure out what God wanted from us so that we could do it just right and get our prize at the end, whatever we've asked for.  

I remember Evangelists and Pastors saying things like, "So and so tithed 10% on their gross income, first thing Friday when the check arrived, they set aside crisp bills for the offering envelope, and God gave them a new house!"  Or, "So and so asked for a new car/a spouse/a job and was very specific in what they wanted and God blessed their bold faith with exactly that."  We'd have alter calls where we'd pray and pray and pray, working ourselves up into loud, emotional frenzies, tongues, music, shouting, sobbing hoping to hear from the Holy Spirit or for a prayer to be answered.  And there were times when it didn't "work" and we'd be returned to our pews only to be admonished for not having enough faith, or having a hidden sin, or not doing enough.  All of these are just Manifestation, a New Age practice wrapped in a Jesus cloak.  

There's a difference between believing that the Lord loves to give His children good things and answer their prayers and believing that we can pry good things out of God if we just insert the right formula.  

Now, my church would "church it up" by saying "The Lord is ready to give.  Are you ready to receive?"  This implied that everything is ours for the taking because the Lord already gave it to us.  We just have to "go get it" "believe and receive."  It took away the relationship, the Fatherhood of God, His Will for us, His design, His purpose, His glory and Kingdom."  What if God's perfect gift to us is the hardship?  What if His Will is the hurt and pain and suffering that others may grow in virtue and benefit, or even ourselves?  

I know many women with chronic illnesses, including myself, who have been spiritual abused by such practices, wondering why God hasn't healed them, but living under this belief system that God wants them healed, they just aren't doing things just right enough to manifest that healing.  They hyper-focus on the woman with the issue of blood and how her simple faith healed her and wonder why all of their faithful efforts haven't brought forth healing.  I have to remind them that Christ didn't heal everyone while He was on earth.  He didn't raise everyone from the dead.  Not everyone received his bread and fish.  I have to remind them that He allowed for His own cousin, John the Baptist, to be beheaded!  The apostles suffered greatly.  Christians were persecuted.  Saints suffered many illnesses.  Not because God isn't good, but because He IS and His ways are not our ways.  

Manifestation is a New Age practice.  It is witchcraft.  In the church, it is American-centric picket-fence witchcraft in which we, based on our culture, think we are entitled to the Christo-American idealism or health, wealth, and happiness.  

We can certainly pray for healing and for changes in our life circumstances.  By all means, do!  But, remember, "not my will, but Thy Will be done." 


 

Monday, July 18, 2022

What is Forgiveness?

 


There are many people in our lives who have not apologized to us for the harm they've done towards us.  Some of them we can easily forgive.  We understand it was out of character for them, or a misunderstanding, or they were children at the time and didn't quite know better, or the incident was rather small in the grand scheme of things an had no lasting effect on us.  Sometimes, however, there are people who have hurt us deeply, or continue to hurt us.  Some may be sorry but never apologize.  Some may not be sorry at all.  Some may be hard-hearted and blind to their abuses.  Some may feel justified in being a rotten person towards others.  

It can be very difficult to forgive such a person.  I have such a person in my life who has caused me to contemplate forgiveness for many years, now.  It is easy to forgive a contrite person.  For me, it's even easy to forgive a person who did wrong in the past, never apologized, but has turned over a new leaf, or left my life and isn't a bother to me anymore.  But, it is very hard to forgive someone who continues with being a difficult and hurtful person and isn't sorry for it.  

I recently decided, thanks to learning about the Catholic teaching of offering it up, to offer up all the sufferings I endure with this person for their salvation and conversion to the Catholic Faith.  They are the kind of person who would make an awesome Saul-to-Paul conversion story (which, incidentally, is probably why the devil has such a grip on them).  I thought it would be sweet and easy to just grab those hurts hurled at me and float them up to heaven like mylar party balloons.  How I really react is quite different.

Anger, hurt, tears, resentment.  I swear under my breath.  I even flip them off behind their back.  I get so angry!  But the worst reaction I have, Lord, forgive me, is that I don't want to offer up the sufferings for their salvation because I don't necessarily want them encroaching on my faith walk, going to church with me, and I get so angry I don't want them in heaven with me.  They're always talking about how much fun hell is and how much better it'll be to go there than heaven, so I sometimes just want to say, "fine, go there, then, and leave me at peace in Heaven!"

That is not what God wants of me.  Imagine if Christ thought that way on the cross.  "I'm dying for you and you want Barabbas?!  Fine!  Have him!  I'll take the few remaining faithful and go."  No.  He wants all of us to come Home to Him, no matter how horribly we've treated him.  He wants this person in Heaven and if I have to suffer for them to get there, that's what I've been called to do.  

So, what is forgiveness in all of this?  Forgiveness is wanting them to be in Heaven with you, to spend eternity with them, should they accept the Lord's invitation.  

Even now as I type this I struggle with the idea.  Perfect contrition is so difficult to achieve, it seems.  Perfect forgiveness, too.  Lord, help me and have mercy.

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